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You need a pen to write your thoughts with!! How about TWO?!! That wraps up today’s gift package. A collaged journal, a large journal package, journaling cards, a passport insert, and two designer pens!! What more could you ask for??

Oh?! The winner?

Check back in TWO hours and you will find out!!

July Journal Challenge Update

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Progress small or large is progress, nonetheless

That’s right folks! I have a few entries completed in my #julyjournalchallenge and today I shall give y’all a peek!! Yay!



Challenge Chat

Before I begin, allow me to refer to the basics of this challenge. Initially, I had planned to create four individual inserts to record, plan, and create in. It just so happened that four wasn’t necessary.

If you haven’t a clue as to what I am talking about, refer to the original post, July Journal Challenge. You will find a more in-depth description.

I created a standard size insert and a passport insert. I then used a store bought calendar insert. This totals three inserts that were used to help me organize and promote creativity in my life. The two I created are my July insert and a writing insert (pictured below). The passport size insert is where I write life’s little synchronicity’s, ah ha moments or things I have tied together as a result of patterned behavior.

Left to right: cover, back cover, inside cover

The July insert is where I have been expressing my creativity and trying new things, exploring my own creativity. The goal in doing so is to build trust in my own ideas and assist in developing my style. Both inserts are being used for the July Journal Challenge prompts (below). The same goes for being used to record specific events that have happened this month.

Left to right: inside cover hidden quote, collage prompt, map pocket page with frame

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L to R: Map pocket page draped over a journaling page, hidden journaling page with a tag, prompt completion of letter to self five years from now

When I created the list of prompts, I chose random ideas and typed ’em up. That became apparent the first time I sat down to create. But hey, the only way you learn is by jumping in! And so I did. I think randomness keeps it interesting but I also like to have more of a themed guide. I suppose I will figure it out as I go.

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Passport size writing journal (L to R) cover front, cover back

This month has been a pretty rough one and when that is the case, my focus is zilch, however, I am on an increased dose of the new medication- I start the new mg tomorrow….let’s hope it works. Lord knows I need something because the thoughts in this head have nooooo direction. They begin, the whole plan is thought through and after a nights rest, barely visited again 😞 (sigh). Example: I have 41 draft posts!?!?

top: inside cover with pocket bottom: inside pages using vintage and designer pages

I feel like I may be distancing myself too much from the habit of blogging. Writing is my chosen medium of art. Words do something for me that cannot be explained but I am also trying to explore other avenues of creativity and until I discover my style, I won’t be satisfied. I suppose its like finding your voice as a blogger/writer. Stepping out of my comfort zone is, well, stepping out of my comfort zone but I am enjoying myself. The lack of focus does get to me though. It’s frustrating.

I have so much I want to share but in an effort to keep some focus, I take photos and hope to remember the process so that I can eventually write a shitload of material. And I mean a shitload!! I would literally have content for a year if I went solely off the photos I’ve been snapping over the 14 months of my creative journey. Like probably daily material. I’ll bookmark that idea..lol.

As an addition to my creative skills, I’ve recently taught myself about using a scanner. Like… ok, where the hell was I when this brilliant technology was given to us?? Because ummmm, can you say addicted?!?!? Sheesh! I really have so much going on but the great thing is, it all revolves around paper. So that is a plus for me and y’all because guess what??? I will be having a nice giveaway soon!! Yay…oh, and fingers crossed, some digital products 🙂 but I’m not going to spoil the surprises. Note to self: you should’ve put that in the newsletter you haven’t written in three months – gggrrrr. See! TOO MUCH! Anyone wanna be a virtual life assistant? 😂😂

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Mental Health & Recovery

An option or not?

Losing hope isn’t an option and yet it seems to be the first I let go of. I am worn out from trying to stay afloat. Complaining with no action is pity and that is where I am. I can’t seem to do anything about this phase and yet I am resisting it with all my might. I’m tired. Tired of bitching, tired of crying, tired of…life. My body is exhausted and my mind; blank. I do not know what to do next. I try to not focus on the shit storm that is my existence and yet that’s it. I vaguely remember my summers being this way but I have also been on antidepressants so maybe they haven’t been as bad as this. So, I am on day two of my antidepressants – again.

I have never minded taking them. It was the antipsychotic I wanted to quit and somehow ceased taking the antidepressant along the way. My sister has moved in and while I love her a ton, I’m not excited because it displaces my daughter from her room. She isn’t here that much but it takes away her personal space and she isn’t happy about it, to say the least. I’ve been trying to prepare her for this day but really how can one prepare for it? She will have her own space but it is a work in progress. I have done nothing in regards to help making her a space of her own because I physically cannot at this point because…fuck, I can’t. I’m broke.

I am sitting in my designated studio space and it is the first time I have sat here in a week or so. Sure I’ve sat here but immediately I get up. I have no inspiration. I want to create to release whatever this pain is but instead I get up. What bothers me the most at this point is that I have nothing of value to write about. I feel like Debbie Downer and I don’t like putting depressing shit out into the universe but it is my reality and if I only put out Polly Positivity, I’d be lying.

Shortly after typing the above paragraphs I laid down and slept…more. I guess I need it. It’s all I want to do and the last thing I want to do. My body feels like it is shutting down without my permission. People have a hard time believing our mental health affects our physical state but I am living proof that it most certainly does.

I am going to try and put out an S.Y.K. tomorrow but I have two appointments and Kid so no promises. I will reach out and ask that y’all keep me in your thoughts and thank you for any good, positive vibrations you can send my way. I need them. I will drink me some water and hang on for tomorrow. Let’s hope that gets me through because giving up is not an option.

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Working on Us #4

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Working on Us

#4

After missing last weeks episode, I had to make sure to make good on this one. Life is a little busy and a little shitty right now but hey!!…that’s life 🙂

Kid and I went out today and bought her some socks for school and a tea pot for her future stovetop. We prefer our tea boiled in a tea pot verses in the microwave. The aroma of tea makes me happy. My daughter is a sweet tea drinking fool so for her dorm/future apartment, a tea pot is essential 😉 For Christmas I bought her a black strainer with silver handles and when we saw the tea pot with the colors reversed, she had to have it. Twenty dollars is worth the value of some good ole sweet tea.


I am choosing the first prompt which this week is a question that asks:

How do you deal with the stigma surrounding your mental illness(es)? The question was submitted by Carol Anne

I do not lend my focus toward the stigmas attached. I prefer speaking from personal experience and to anyone who brings the subject up. I also make sure to defend our lack of control on the matter and also do my best to provide educating material for others. In fact, I have pulled out Ashley’s book at work for a few girls who were questioning their medication. I do not have a resource library on hand but I do have some quick material bookmarked for easy access. I choose to put my energy in understanding my own situation without allowing others opinion to pollute my experience. I still grapple for the words to describe what it is I am dealing with. Some days are better than others.

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*language warning*

I am finding this time of my life extremely difficult. Each time I feel as though I advance on a spiritual level, something material or childish, immature behavior on behalf of others, pulls me down. I want to run away. Sell my car and live on the streets. This race to maintain and all the glory given to the almighty dollar has my life in shambles. Do you know how it feels to say “I am unhappy. I want to quit my job” and to have your mother remind you that you have bills?? Because she “wants to mentor me”. Are you fucking kidding me? Mentor a 40-year-old?!! For crying out loud, it’s a little fuck’n late don’tcha think???

And life with a teen is pure bliss. If I see her. She’s in and out. When she’s in, she’s laid up in her room without a care in the world. The world spins for her and what else is there to do? Or that’s what I assume she thinks because hell, I have no clue what she thinks. Every time I think I do, I get it wrong.

Do you ever feel like there is always someone standing over your shoulder criticizing every step you take? That’s what life feels like for me and it fuck’n sucks!!! Because if we gonna do that, I got a list for them too…but I do not want to feed into that energy but…Did I mention it fuck’n sucks? No one wants to evaluate themselves. They’d rather point out everything you do “wrong”. I’m over it!!

I’d like to touch on gossiping and I mean barely skim over the subject: GROW SOME BALLS AND COMMUNICATE!!! And to the two-faced people out there…grow the fuck up. You think you are slick?? You are a waste of time. Stop trying to snake your way into friendships because who you truly are will soon surface.

I’m going to take a nap and try again. Let’s hope I feel better when I wake up because right now….

An Introduction to Creative Journaling

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Discussing my fave!

Good morning dear friends.  Today I decided I would like to touch on a topic near and dear to my heart, journaling.  Wait! Don’t scatter!! I am not talking about your typical style of journaling rather creative journaling.

In the linked article you will find the author goes into a brief history about creative journaling, proper strategy’s that result in therapeutic benefits, as well as her personal experience with creative journaling. I have yet to define what it is creative journaling is for me. At the moment I would say that it is more so me combining designs and techniques in search of my own individual style. I am finding that I struggle to actually journal over the pretty collaging and choose to add my journaling to a separate piece of decorated paper and attach it or put it in a pocket on the page I came up with.

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The more and more I practice I seem to improve but I have to be honest when I say I still struggle with perfection and achieving desired results. I am too hard on myself and I am an unforgiving critic. I assumed that such creative journaling would come easy to me because of the habit I have developed over the course of 30 years of journal writing but that hasn’t been my experience. Others compliment my work but I am not to the point of where I am satisfied. I put creating journals on hold in order to focus on my own development whuch in return will improve those I look to sell.

More and more I am noticing how badly I screw things up by not allowing them to be. How do I stop this cycle and just be free?? Please leave your suggestions in the comment section below. Please do not allow my experience to keep you from giving this a go. I refuse to stop and I will continue to work through this.

Still here??

You may have found yourself needing an outlet to release your fears or worries, your personal struggles or you may simply enjoy writing for memory purposes.  Whichever the case, I would love to introduce you to creative journaling.

Give me a second of your time and I’ll explain in further detail what creative journaling means to me.


If you search on Instagram you can hashtag search creative planning and millions of photos will be at your fingertips.  I first discussed creative planning at the beginning of the new year.  It is where you decorate your planner pages using sticker kits, markers, washi tape, decorative paper clips… you get the picture…

It isn’t that this form of journaling/planning is more productive or has superpowers that take you to Oz but what it does do is it adds character to your pages and breaks the monotony of a blank, white page.  

There are a million ways you can approach this style of journaling. Personally I achieve unique pages by layering bits of ephemera from my day to day life or by pulling from my insane collection, where I go on to create a background for my writing.

 You can either hide your writing under the layers of paper so that only you know what lies beneath or you can add your writing to a separate piece of paper and then add it to the college of papers you’ve glued down.  Here is a more visual description.

Creative Journaling

A random yet brilliant idea for you authors out there!

This doesn’t have to be exclusively for your personal info.  You can use the idea when creating a piece of fiction writing.  Sketch what each character looks like, to you, on a piece of paper and adhere it to your page.  From there you can write out ways to describe them using specific adjectives that make your character come to life.  

You can do this with each setting, every character, and you will have a visual and written representation of your ideas.  Begin a fresh page with a new chapter and this will help to organize your thoughts for the book you are writing!! Buy a cheap notebook and dedicate it to use for this idea!!

My thoughts

It creates interest when you layer specific papers to your pages.  The papers used do not have to mean anything because it is about writing your thoughts.  Or..you can be like me and use a mixture of meaningful papers and decorative papers. That’s the beauty of it.  It is all personal preference and totally up to you. What’s even better is that you can make a mistake and cover it up with a layer of paper 🙂 The sky’s the limit.

My tendency to become obsessed with ideas that include bit and pieces of paper that accumulate from everyday life is off the charts.  From my earliest years, I’ve held on to notes written from friends, tickets from concerts, wristbands from waterparks, movie ticket stubs and anything else that brought back to life a moment in time that I enjoyed.  Due to an invasion of privacy, any memories kept prior to my sophomore year went up in flames.

Keeping journals and other bits and pieces of paper became a routine of stuffing in designated drawers and writing in code so that if there were another breach in privacy, the perpetrator would not know specifics. These pieces of my life remain in a trunk stored in my storage unit while my journaling is scattered among notebooks.  Since stumbling upon creative journaling I have made it my mission to gather any and all papers and combine them to best of my ability. My ultimate goal would be to bind them together in one book for my daughter to have when I am gone. Will that happen? I hope so.

Other forms of creative journaling

My code writing days have become more elusive with my give a damn and my life of collecting papers along the way has doubled with an influx of ideas.  Using everyday papers collected from your experiences and adding them to your journaling is referred to as junk journaling.  Oh, the possibilities paper holds!!  Hours upon hours have been spent watching YouTube videos of creating memory masterpieces transforming my love of paper into an idea catalog that I haven’t quite yet to organize but I am getting there.  Much to my surprise, this creative endeavor has led to the discovery of art journaling, glue books, and a travelers notebook system. Talk about paper heaven!!  I can’t get enough.

I have made it my mission to combine vintage and modern designs with designer paper as well as daily junk paper to create memory keeping books for others to record and store their most precious moments.  May 2, 2018, I declared my beginning of a creative journey and boy let me tell ya a journey it’s been. The hours I have invested in research, trial and error, practice using my own life’s memories, creating a studio, organizing and reorganizing my new space, shopping, purchasing, disassembling books and magazines, cutting, gluing…can not be totaled.  The best part is that I have LOVED every minute of it!!

Working on Us

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Working on Us

There is a new series presented by Beckie of the blog Beckie’s Mental Mess. If you are not following her journey, you are missing out!! If you have ever read the comment section of any given post here on R.O.E., you will have read Beckie’s input.

As a very supportive blogger and friend dear to me, I am honored she reached out and asked me to participate in her series. These days my blogging life is hit and miss and I appreciate the personal invite. This is the first of the first as Beckie’s first prompt challenge. Her intentions are to target the mental health community of bloggers.

Here, I’ll let her do the explaining…


RULES:

Each week I will ask a question or questions pertaining to mental health or I will even go as far as posting a surprise. Your job if you so choose to join along, is to write a post on your own blog, and creating a ping-back to the original post.

It is up to you the reader to decide if you want to write a non-fictional or fictional piece, poetry, short prose… Whatever you like and/or whatever you feel most comfortable doing. Whatever you choose to do, I will, therefore, reblog what you have written. This is one way to not only promote your site but also spread awareness to all things mental health related.

As an added bonus… Since there are so many different mental health illnesses/disorders, YOU, the blogger can send me a comment as to what you would like to be the next question (s), and they will be addressed in future posts.

What is the reason behind the “Mental Health Prompt of “Working on Us” (?) It’s fairly simple actually. I’d like this series to be an all-inclusive mental health community blog in order to be a source of more support towards one another. Idea’s, suggestions, and advice can be shared amongst the group.

So, Are We Ready? I am going to start with two prompts. You can pick one or both, and again, you can choose how you want this to be written.

~*~

Prompt #1 – Question:

When you first found out that you had a mental illness/disorder, what was your first reaction? Explain, how this new revelation regarding your health affected you?

Prompt #2 – Picture:

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Reminder: This is the first time I conducting “Prompts” so forgive me if I’m doing something wrong. 🙄

Select one or the other or both prompts. Write your own non-fictional, or fictional piece, or poetry, short story, (Whatever you want), then create a ping-back or copy your post and enter it in the comment section of this post.


There ya have it, straight from the horse’s mouth!!

And now for my part 💕


Some see a season

I see a twist

Do I dare speak

on what I see?

As you sit there

and stare

I do see

what you see

And

It’s never compared

Different

And you see

I was raised to believe

that me being me

was different

And

something

I

shouldn’t

be

Mental anguish

has broken me

Hail to

today

I shall say

as I see

A side profile

that represents a space

that houses the brain

Is it a tree you see?

Do you see…

snow on the ground?

I see a broken soul

Dead

Are those crows you see?

I see repetitive thoughts

circling

or maybe

birds of prey

feeding off the carcass

of the soul

With footprints leaving their mark

Proof

a soul was

once there

My vision stripped

bare

Because of you

I dare

and

share.

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Let’s Talk Paper

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Let’s Talk Paper!

Hey, Y’all!!  Keeping with the theme of stationery, today I will provide some basic information about paper sizing.  We all know that there are different sizes and types of paper available for purchase but possibly not the exact sizing.  How does this information help you? Well, if you like to schedule your daily life then a planner may be necessary. Planners come in a variety of sizes and finding your planner peace often depends on finding the perfect size planner that suits your needs.  This is also true when deciding on notebooks sizes.

You don’t have to be into planning to benefit from the following information.  The sizes of paper matter when printing as well.

Paper Sizing

Paper sizes are measured on a standard paper size scale.  International standard (ISO) specifies paper sizes used in most countries except for the U.S. and Canada which size their own sizing standard.

There are a lot of mathematical formulas behind A, B, and C paper sizes but the common feature is that any successive paper size measurement is determined by halving the dimensions of the preceding one.

Notebook Paper Size A Series

A3 11.7 X 16.5 inches

A4 8.3 X 11.7 inches

A5 5.8 X 8.3 inches

A6 4.1 X 5.8 inches

A7 2.9 X 4.1 inches

Examples of commonly printed items are:

postcards A6

flyer A5

newsletter A4

Remember: The larger the number, the smaller the paper size.

Notebook Paper Size B Series

B5 6.9 X 9.8

B6 4.9 X 6.9

B7 3.5 X 4.9

Paper Weight (GSM)

Grams per meter squared (GSM) refers to the paper’s weight, its thickness.  Generally the thicker/heavier the paper, the better its quality, unless we consider Japanese papers and then we have a new ball game.  Japanese stationer’s bring a different contender to the game of paper in terms of quality. They offer thin, soft papers for calligraphy that show no bleed through.  That makes for a separate post.

Back to standard paper – The thicker the paper the less tendency to bleed through or feather when using wet ink pens, ie. fountain pens.  I prefer marker pens which have a tendency to bleed through when using writing paper but with a thicker stock paper, it does not.

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Types of Paper

  1. Text paper (office paper) ~ lightweight 20 lbs budget-friendly, medium 22-24lbs, heavy 28-32 lbs pen will not bleed through
  2. Bristol ~ lightest cardstock, most commonly used, 100lb for card making projects
  3. Index ~ sturdier cardstock, smoother than Bristol
  4. Cover ~ much thicker, invitations, cards

Paper Finish

  1. Coated
  2. Uncoated

Both uncoated and coated papers can have a polished finish.  The polished types are gloss, semi-gloss, silk, and matte.

7 Categories of Paper

  1. Printing paper
  2. Writing paper
  3. Wrapping paper
  4. Blotting paper
  5. Drawing paper
  6. Handmade papers
  7. Specialty paper

Need to Know Info: Paper has a history that can be traced back to the 2nd-century in China.  The use of paper has a large impact on the environment in terms of trash and deforestation.  The use and production of recycled paper are more prevalent today because of environmental factors.

The extent of information provided is condensed, as you can imagine the scope of information related to stationery.  If you work in an office setting you are likely to have learned about paper sizing, type, and finish without realizing you have done so. Printing requires paper settings to achieve a desired result.  Next time you are printing, take note of the settings and the options you are given, This is an easy way to familiarize yourself with the information you just read in terms of real life situations.


*information source: Wikipedia