That’s right folks! I have a few entries completed in my #julyjournalchallenge and today I shall give y’all a peek!! Yay!
Before I begin, allow me to refer to the basics of this challenge. Initially, I had planned to create four individual inserts to record, plan, and create in. It just so happened that four wasn’t necessary.
If you haven’t a clue as to what I am talking about, refer to the original post, July Journal Challenge. You will find a more in-depth description.
I created a standard size insert and a passport insert. I then used a store bought calendar insert. This totals three inserts that were used to help me organize and promote creativity in my life. The two I created are my July insert and a writing insert (pictured below). The passport size insert is where I write life’s little synchronicity’s, ah ha moments or things I have tied together as a result of patterned behavior.
The July insert is where I have been expressing my creativity and trying new things, exploring my own creativity. The goal in doing so is to build trust in my own ideas and assist in developing my style. Both inserts are being used for the July Journal Challenge prompts (below). The same goes for being used to record specific events that have happened this month.
When I created the list of prompts, I chose random ideas and typed ’em up. That became apparent the first time I sat down to create. But hey, the only way you learn is by jumping in! And so I did. I think randomness keeps it interesting but I also like to have more of a themed guide. I suppose I will figure it out as I go.
This month has been a pretty rough one and when that is the case, my focus is zilch, however, I am on an increased dose of the new medication- I start the new mg tomorrow….let’s hope it works. Lord knows I need something because the thoughts in this head have nooooo direction. They begin, the whole plan is thought through and after a nights rest, barely visited again 😞 (sigh). Example: I have 41 draft posts!?!?
I feel like I may be distancing myself too much from the habit of blogging. Writing is my chosen medium of art. Words do something for me that cannot be explained but I am also trying to explore other avenues of creativity and until I discover my style, I won’t be satisfied. I suppose its like finding your voice as a blogger/writer. Stepping out of my comfort zone is, well, stepping out of my comfort zone but I am enjoying myself. The lack of focus does get to me though. It’s frustrating.
I have so much I want to share but in an effort to keep some focus, I take photos and hope to remember the process so that I can eventually write a shitload of material. And I mean a shitload!! I would literally have content for a year if I went solely off the photos I’ve been snapping over the 14 months of my creative journey. Like probably daily material. I’ll bookmark that idea..lol.
As an addition to my creative skills, I’ve recently taught myself about using a scanner. Like… ok, where the hell was I when this brilliant technology was given to us?? Because ummmm, can you say addicted?!?!? Sheesh! I really have so much going on but the great thing is, it all revolves around paper. So that is a plus for me and y’all because guess what??? I will be having a nice giveaway soon!! Yay…oh, and fingers crossed, some digital products 🙂 but I’m not going to spoil the surprises. Note to self: you should’ve put that in the newsletter you haven’t written in three months – gggrrrr. See! TOO MUCH! Anyone wanna be a virtual life assistant? 😂😂
We all know how easily I can be distracted and I have been so for a month. Squirrel. Lol. But no, really. And omg how huge this day is???!!! I can honestly see that I am growing.
I won’t fool you and say the decision was mine because it wasn’t but what I can say is, I felt the sadness of it, and let it go. No obsessing, no fighting it, no harassing, no embarrassment, no shame, no regret…just acceptance. Wow!! Fuck’n WOW!!!
Wow. It’s a beautiful thing. To be able to speak on the things you feel in the moment but to also let go of those things because they are now in the past…even if it was an hour ago, it’s gone. The sadness I feel is because I have to leave the broken behind to save myself. But I will never truly let go of those whom I wish to rescue from themselves and so I’ll improve myself in hopes of them seeing the potential presence has. The peace it offers. The pain it relieves. The love it has.
The pure essence of it is at its core is an amazing concept and one I find my soul grasping onto for its own survival. A warrior I am and a slave I have been but I’ve felt the release acceptance brings and I refuse to let that go. That belongs to me – within me. Embedded in my soul. It is my soul.
It is for everyone, not only me and if you embrace it, you will see. You too are worthy. Set yourself free and just BE.
If you are reading this know that you are witnessing its power. I am changing. It is changing me. I am allowing it and fuck is it scary but so fuck’n worth it!!!
* If you are reading this, thank you, Chris. Your respect and faith in me has given me strength. *
Good morning dear friends. Today I decided I would like to touch on a topic near and dear to my heart, journaling. Wait! Don’t scatter!! I am not talking about your typical style of journaling rather creative journaling.
In the linked article you will find the author goes into a brief history about creative journaling, proper strategy’s that result in therapeutic benefits, as well as her personal experience with creative journaling. I have yet to define what it is creative journaling is for me. At the moment I would say that it is more so me combining designs and techniques in search of my own individual style. I am finding that I struggle to actually journal over the pretty collaging and choose to add my journaling to a separate piece of decorated paper and attach it or put it in a pocket on the page I came up with.
The more and more I practice I seem to improve but I have to be honest when I say I still struggle with perfection and achieving desired results. I am too hard on myself and I am an unforgiving critic. I assumed that such creative journaling would come easy to me because of the habit I have developed over the course of 30 years of journal writing but that hasn’t been my experience. Others compliment my work but I am not to the point of where I am satisfied. I put creating journals on hold in order to focus on my own development whuch in return will improve those I look to sell.
More and more I am noticing how badly I screw things up by not allowing them to be. How do I stop this cycle and just be free?? Please leave your suggestions in the comment section below. Please do not allow my experience to keep you from giving this a go. I refuse to stop and I will continue to work through this.
You may have found yourself needing an outlet to release your fears or worries, your personal struggles or you may simply enjoy writing for memory purposes. Whichever the case, I would love to introduce you to creative journaling.
Give me a second of your time and I’ll explain in further detail what creative journaling means to me.
If you search on Instagram you can hashtag search creative planning and millions of photos will be at your fingertips. I first discussed creative planning at the beginning of the new year. It is where you decorate your planner pages using sticker kits, markers, washi tape, decorative paper clips… you get the picture…
It isn’t that this form of journaling/planning is more productive or has superpowers that take you to Oz but what it does do is it adds character to your pages and breaks the monotony of a blank, white page.
There are a million ways you can approach this style of journaling. Personally I achieve unique pages by layering bits of ephemera from my day to day life or by pulling from my insane collection, where I go on to create a background for my writing.
You can either hide your writing under the layers of paper so that only you know what lies beneath or you can add your writing to a separate piece of paper and then add it to the college of papers you’ve glued down. Here is a more visual description.
A random yet brilliant idea for you authors out there!
This doesn’t have to be exclusively for your personal info. You can use the idea when creating a piece of fiction writing. Sketch what each character looks like, to you, on a piece of paper and adhere it to your page. From there you can write out ways to describe them using specific adjectives that make your character come to life.
You can do this with each setting, every character, and you will have a visual and written representation of your ideas. Begin a fresh page with a new chapter and this will help to organize your thoughts for the book you are writing!! Buy a cheap notebook and dedicate it to use for this idea!!
It creates interest when you layer specific papers to your pages. The papers used do not have to mean anything because it is about writing your thoughts. Or..you can be like me and use a mixture of meaningful papers and decorative papers. That’s the beauty of it. It is all personal preference and totally up to you. What’s even better is that you can make a mistake and cover it up with a layer of paper 🙂 The sky’s the limit.
My tendency to become obsessed with ideas that include bit and pieces of paper that accumulate from everyday life is off the charts. From my earliest years, I’ve held on to notes written from friends, tickets from concerts, wristbands from waterparks, movie ticket stubs and anything else that brought back to life a moment in time that I enjoyed. Due to an invasion of privacy, any memories kept prior to my sophomore year went up in flames.
Keeping journals and other bits and pieces of paper became a routine of stuffing in designated drawers and writing in code so that if there were another breach in privacy, the perpetrator would not know specifics. These pieces of my life remain in a trunk stored in my storage unit while my journaling is scattered among notebooks. Since stumbling upon creative journaling I have made it my mission to gather any and all papers and combine them to best of my ability. My ultimate goal would be to bind them together in one book for my daughter to have when I am gone. Will that happen? I hope so.
Other forms of creative journaling
My code writing days have become more elusive with my give a damn and my life of collecting papers along the way has doubled with an influx of ideas. Using everyday papers collected from your experiences and adding them to your journaling is referred to as junk journaling. Oh, the possibilities paper holds!! Hours upon hours have been spent watching YouTube videos of creating memory masterpieces transforming my love of paper into an idea catalog that I haven’t quite yet to organize but I am getting there. Much to my surprise, this creative endeavor has led to the discovery of art journaling, glue books, and a travelers notebook system. Talk about paper heaven!! I can’t get enough.
I have made it my mission to combine vintage and modern designs with designer paper as well as daily junk paper to create memory keeping books for others to record and store their most precious moments. May 2, 2018, I declared my beginning of a creative journey and boy let me tell ya a journey it’s been. The hours I have invested in research, trial and error, practice using my own life’s memories, creating a studio, organizing and reorganizing my new space, shopping, purchasing, disassembling books and magazines, cutting, gluing…can not be totaled. The best part is that I have LOVED every minute of it!!
There is a new series presented by Beckie of the blog Beckie’s Mental Mess. If you are not following her journey, you are missing out!! If you have ever read the comment section of any given post here on R.O.E., you will have read Beckie’s input.
As a very supportive blogger and friend dear to me, I am honored she reached out and asked me to participate in her series. These days my blogging life is hit and miss and I appreciate the personal invite. This is the first of the first as Beckie’s first prompt challenge. Her intentions are to target the mental health community of bloggers.
Here, I’ll let her do the explaining…
Each week I will ask a question or questions pertaining to mental health or I will even go as far as posting a surprise. Your job if you so choose to join along, is to write a post on your own blog, and creating a ping-back to the original post.
It is up to you the reader to decide if you want to write a non-fictional or fictional piece, poetry, short prose… Whatever you like and/or whatever you feel most comfortable doing. Whatever you choose to do, I will, therefore, reblog what you have written. This is one way to not only promote your site but also spread awareness to all things mental health related.
As an added bonus… Since there are so many different mental health illnesses/disorders, YOU, the blogger can send me a comment as to what you would like to be the next question (s), and they will be addressed in future posts.
What is the reason behind the “Mental Health Prompt of “Working on Us” (?) It’s fairly simple actually. I’d like this series to be an all-inclusive mental health community blog in order to be a source of more support towards one another. Idea’s, suggestions, and advice can be shared amongst the group.
So, Are We Ready? I am going to start with two prompts. You can pick one or both, and again, you can choose how you want this to be written.
Prompt #1 – Question:
When you first found out that you had a mental illness/disorder, what was your first reaction? Explain, how this new revelation regarding your health affected you?
Prompt #2 – Picture:
Reminder: This is the first time I conducting “Prompts” so forgive me if I’m doing something wrong. 🙄
Select one or the other or both prompts. Write your own non-fictional, or fictional piece, or poetry, short story, (Whatever you want), then create a ping-back or copy your post and enter it in the comment section of this post.
There ya have it, straight from the horse’s mouth!!
I was going to mention how quick the week came and went and then I realized we are halfway through the year!! Wowzers!! Can you believe we are already 6 months into 2019?!?!
Every Monday here on R.O.E. we present a series of questions for bloggers to answer with the hopes of getting to know the person behind the screen better. You can participate by creating a post on your site answering the week’s questions or you may answer them in the comment section below. If you choose to publish a post, please create a pingback to this week’s edition of S.Y.K.
This week’s Questions
Do you have a hobby? If so, what is it?
How did you discover your interest in your hobby?
Do you find having a hobby helps with maintaining your mental wellness? How so?
Where do you find materials for staying active with your hobby?
Have you ever considered monetizing your hobby? Or if you already do, do you still enjoy it as a hobby?
What is your favorite part of summer?I would have to say having cook outs by the pool or at the lake is my favorite part. I love the closeness I feel to nature when I am using traditional methods of feeding people by using the bare essentials of modern day cookware. If that makes sense. Lol
Do you swim in bodies of water that are questionable? Like where you cannot see the bottom – lakes, ponds, the ocean… if so, what’s is your fear in doing so?When I was a kid we swam in anything that created a puddle. Manmade ponds and lakes with slimy bottoms where you couldn’t see your feet with red clay mud being the structure of the pond. These days, not so much. If I get in a body of water it is to cool off by quickly throwing water over my body or getting on a float in the shallow end and rowing myself out to the deep end. I will however swim in a pool but not after fourth of July – in Louisiana at least. Why? The water after the fourth is like bath water and I cannot stand the thought of urine filled bath water especially when the urine isn’t my own. Yuck. The ocean is a little different because of the ability to see my feet. I am still a bit weirded out about the marine life though. Arkansas has beautiful bodies of water with cold. flowing water that is clear and with rock bottoms. That is my kind of water to be in. Streams and flowing water is what I prefer.
What is the average temperature (Fahrenheit) of summer in your area?on average I would say between the months of May and August 90 degrees is average but it soars into the 100’s more often than I like. UGH!!! I’m not ready for it!
Do you have access to a pool? If so, is it your own private pool or a complex pool?I do but I don’t. We are allowed to use my Ma’s best friend’s private pool but I don’t very often. My co-worker who lives across the street has an apartment and I have laid out at her complex’s pool once this year.
What ocean is closest to you?The Gulf of Mexico is at the bottom of Louisiana but I don’t believe I’ve ever been in it.
That’s it for this weeks edition of S.Y.K. If there are things you wish you knew about other bloggers, submit a list of questions you would like to know the answer too and I will use them in future So You Knows. You can do so by chatting with me via email.
Thanks for participating and as always, I love y’all!!!
Hopefully, you’ve realized such because, by the time this post is published, the work day will be ending 🙂
It’s none other than you know who – Candace – here for your weekly dose of So You Know. Never participated? Never fear, the guidelines are posted each week. Ready? Ok, good… Here we go…
Every Monday I will ask 1-5 questions.
You can answer all or just a few
Topics range from surface, general topics all the way to in-depth personal topics.
To participate you can either answer in the comment section below or create a post on your site and link back to the week’s S.Y.K. post. Don’t know how to link back? Chat with me and I’ll explain how.
Last but certainly not least – be honest!
The purpose of S.Y.K. is to give your readers insight to the person behind the blog ❤
As for my answers… you will find my answers below the week’s questions from the previous week’s questions.
Easy enough, right?!
Do you see a therapist? If so, how does doing so influence your life?
What is your favorite part of adulthood? Your least favorite (besides bills)?
Are the government officials of your country trustworthy?
How important, scale of 1-10, are leprechauns in the evolution of humans? 1-of least importance 10-required
That’s all of this weeks version of So You Know and below are my answers from last weeks questions. * read with caution – trigger warning – talk of suicide
How was your weekend? Honestly.I am writing this the same day last weeks so you know goes live and my weekend has been hell. I came close to committing suicide, I….realized the truth in the saying “we are not our thoughts” and it has impacted me.
Describe the clothes you are wearing now. Is this your normal Monday attire? My normal Monday attire is the most comfortable, stay at home and relax type of outfit imaginable.
Do you work a 9-5 job? No, I do not. I work the weekends, holidays, and early in the morning. On average I have two/three days off a week. My job is physically demanding and is reaching the point that I prepare to change careers.
Who do you look like, your Ma or your dad? My dad. Blah.
Today I have woke in a significantly better space. My sleep was a bit restless as I tossed and turned. An idea came to mind about creating a canvass and that idea kept me thinking about my own experience. Not an experience that I wanted to keep me awake, I will say that. One of being molested at the age of fourteen. I was a willing participant in the act but I can’t help but to think of how sick the 32 year old man was/is. Although I was willing how can a man for one minute believe that a fourteen year old knows what she is doing when it comes to sex and the activities that it involves. It is disturbing to say the least. Disturbing that I thought it was cool that a man of his age would want anything to do with a young teen and more disgusting that he did.
I’m not sure if I’ve ever disclosed this information but the weight of it felt extremely heavy last night and so, I decided if I hadn’t wrote about it, I would. The man is my step-uncles twin brother. Gross, right? I will not allow this to consume my thoughts today but I will tell y’all the idea I had. In the world of creative journaling, tabs are a big deal. Tabs? You ask. The tabs that stick out to make it easier to find a specific section, rather the tabs I reference are for decoration purposes.
These tabs can be made of sturdy cardstock, cardboard, fabric, anything you can staple to the side of the paper to make it easier to access a specific page. Well, for one reason or another, I thought it would a neat idea to have those who have been molested, willing or not, make a tab that represents the act they wish to forget. The tabs would be mailed to me and I will staple them to a thin canvass, creating a piece of art that collectively has been created from victims across the globe. Once the canvass is full, it could be auctioned off with 100% of the proceeds to victims of molestation. Let me know what you think of this idea. I will provide photos of what I mean when I say a tab, below.
This isn’t to distract from me as much as it is to get out of pity. Let me know what you think of the idea. If it so happens you experienced such acts more than once, make tabs for each occasion. The tabs do not have to be pretty. They can be torn, wrinkled, ink-stained, whatever your idea is, I support. If there is an interest, we can do this together. I’m sure I could scan an outline of a tab for those who would prefer there to be a guide. If you wanted to write your abusers initials on the tab, do so. My hope is that this will help with letting the act(s) go.
**Post update: I will purchase a post office box soon and will publish a post with the address for those interested. This can be an anonymous participation. I will not attach any personal information to the piece of canvass related to the tabs.