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Hey y’all! Today’s S.Y.K. is a list of questions that will have you thinking about the future.

This series was established for bloggers to share with their readers a more personal inside look at who is behind their favorite blogs.

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I like to keep it pretty simple around here and here are a few things to keep in mind while participating:

  • There are no right or wrong answers… Your answers = Your opinion = Your life
  • Answer a few or one, whatever you are comfortable with
  • Pingback to any S.Y.K. post
  • Use the hashtag #SYK to tag your post
  • Be real. If you feel a certain type of way, say it. You were asked your opinion (double dog dare)

Extra info.

  • A number of questions will be asked. At least 1, no more than 5.
  • Questions will range in subject from cherries to prostitution.
  • Participation will consist of you creating a post on your website, listing the questions and responding.
  • Pingback to any SYK post

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*As a parent do you feel safe leaving the world in your children hands? Explain why or why not

*If you are child-free, do you feel we (humans) are heading in the right direction, as a whole?

*What do you consider the biggest difference in your generation and your parents generation? Compare the two using a positive impact and its negative effects.

*Do you feel like an old soul? Or a youngster? Why?

*What era would you chose to live in if given the chance?


My answers to last weeks questions:

  • How much of what you do for other others is conditional? When I give of myself or gift a gift, I do so without condition or expectation. However, it is nice to receive a thank you.
  • Are you driven by motive? Not when I do for others but in order for me to do anything for myself, there must be a reward.
  • Who do you think of when you offer assistance to someone in need? I mostly do for those who struggle and have children. I do for the children. While I am empathetic I am not sympathetic by far. The reason for me to do for those who struggle is strictly for the kids. I do donate to the local women’s home and will soon be able to work with local sex workers.
  • If you see someone, a stranger in distress, do you….. A. look the other way B. hang around to see if they receive help C. jump to aid them without thought D. help if you have time??? None of the above. I freeze. I physically cannot react/respond. I have been this way as long as I can remember. It is almost as though my system shuts down but the thought of the exchange of bodily fluid (my ocd trigger) has much to do with this. My ears usually ring when something bad happens so I stand in place with my eyes shut and my ears plugged. I wish the opposite were true.
  • Do you feel integrity is a moral or something created by society that guilts us to follow societal standards? I truly believe integrity is something that belongs to our soul and is the way to stay true to ourselves. With that said it is one of few standards not set by society. I am an open book and have no regret (except one) from my 40-years of existence and that is because what I’ve done behind closed doors, I would do regardless of who is watching.
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Blogging Blah

For no reason at all…

I am complete blah when it comes to anything blog related. Certainly, I’m not alone as I am sure this occurs from time to time. It’s possible that I have too much on my plate or because I am working two jobs again… But I can make any excuse. The reality is I am not feel’n it right now.


I know this is just a phase because my love of writing combined with my need for connection overrides any thoughts of stopping. In fact that never crossed my mind.

If you have followed me for any amount of time, I am sure you have noticed my lack of commitment recently. If you haven’t, it has been on a decline for at least a month. If I really think about it, I lost my momentum after making the decision to stop NYAC. I’ve briefly felt this way before and I hope to regain interest soon but for now, I am just coasting.

I didn’t even open my laptop until 1 a.m.!! I went for almost 24 hours without checking WordPress or reading any post. I believe that is a first since I began blogging. It is times like this that make the decision to go self-hosted difficult.

Some people will tell you that self-hosted is cheaper and way better but after your first year your hosting fee per month doubles if not triples, that does not include the good plug-ins that help operate the backend of your blog, or newer-up-to-date themes. I was told by another blogger that on average if you want to have a successful site, it costs around $500 a year.

If I invested that each year, there would be no breaks nor would I feel ok with taking a step back. You aren’t guaranteed any income and if you don’t get a lot of traffic, you won’t make money.


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I’ve had so much going through my head. I have been manic, off and on, for about 4 months now and I fear a gigantic crash. For some reason, my depression happens more so in the summer months than the other times of the year. That’s odd because I love sunshine but maybe it is the heat that does it to me. Idk but I do know I do not want to fall too far from where I am. Such is my reality.

It is this blah-ness towards blogging that has me fearing a fall. I know many of you will suggest medication and I am not against medication, I’m just not ready to get back on ’em so basically, I get what I deserve…

Moving past that, work has been slow and money isn’t what it needs to be. Actually, I am sure that is contributing to why I feel this way and it bothers me that my emotions are attached to monetary gain. I wish I lived in a world where being a good person meant you had no worries.

Looking at my current status as a whole I come to the conclusion that something has to change. The podcasts I listen to are having an enormous impact on me and I know this discomfort has to do with something I am ignoring and until it gains my attention or I seek it, I will remain dissatisfied. It sucks knowing that all of my problems are me. Because of me. That’s it.

Instead of whining about it I will do as suggested and ground myself. Be present – which is so freak’n hard by the way. This human condition is for the birds!!

Much love from me to you!

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Hey!

Hi. Hello. Howdy…

So You Know
So You Know

It’s good you chose today to stop by because this week’s challenge is meant to bring laughter so keep that in mind when you participate…if you participate…please just participate!!

I’m in the mood to laugh so I believe I will go ahead and play along this week by answering today’s questions in today’s post!! How about that??

I bet you think I forgot like last week… Tricked ya!! I just decided to try posting at a different time. So, let’s review:

Update*  the editor was acting cray-zzzz yesterday and I could not complete specific parts of this weeks challenge.  I apologize for the delay in posting*


I like to keep it pretty simple around here and here are a few things to keep in mind while participating:

  • There are no right or wrong answers… Your answers = Your opinion = Your life
  • Answer a few or one, whatever you are comfortable with
  • Pingback to any S.Y.K. post
  • Use the hashtag #SYK to tag your post
  • Be real. If you feel a certain type of way, say it. You were asked your opinion (double dog dare)

Extra info.

  • A number of questions will be asked. At least 1, no more than 5.
  • Questions will range in subject from cherries to prostitution.
  • Participation will consist of you creating a post on your website, listing the questions and responding.
  • Pingback to any SYK post
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  • Have you ever wet your pants or the bed as an adult?  Ages 18- current age?  I used to sleepwalk and… yupp, it involved using the restroom except I always got lost on my way to the bathroom and would end up having to go so bad that I would just go where I stood.  Whether it was in a laundry basket, my bedroom floor (thank God we had hardwood floors), a corner in room and I even tried to do so in a crisper drawer of the refrigerator!!!!  Isn’t this the craziest thing you’ve ever heard??? In my defense, it started when I was a young child but it got worse when I was drinking.  Needless to say, I haven’t had an “episode” in almost four years and for that I am grateful.  hahahahaha

  • Who is your all-time favorite comedian?  How would you describe the style of comedy you enjoy? I would probably have to say, David Spade.  I think I heard of some bad allegations against him here recently and that is a shame but regardless I find him hilarious!  I consider his style to be a dry, honest, cold style of comedy.  This kind of comedy can’t be argued and that is what makes it so funny.  Basically, it is the truth delivered in a comical format.  There is no denying the talent out there and I enjoy many comedians who have a variety of styles but if I had to choose one, it would be him.  Jo Coy is another that I love to watch and cannot resist snorting because I am laughing so hard.

  • Do you and your friends and/or family have a funny person in your circle?  Luckily, yes!!  My uncle is actually a magician and a comedian.  I used to have different characters I would play when we were growing up.  My brother and sister would laugh and laugh at me.  Of course, I would never do it in front of anyone else but still to this day my sister brings up Ethel (my real old lady character).  Anytime I am around my sister all we do is laugh.  She is the person I laugh with the most.
  • Are you good at telling jokes?  Not at all!  The problem for me is that I am too logical and sadly, I rarely ever “get it” -the punchline.

Last weeks question and my answer:

Who are you? And who are you not?


Well, I am not exactly sure.  This year began a journey of self-discovery.  I have an idea but I will revisit this question when I can answer with certainty.

I am not a thief, a social person, a follower, or a hypocrite.

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In Search Of

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Realizations

I had an epiphany the other day when I published Southern Belle from Hell. I even said it in the letter.

If two strangers have the same negative experience with you, you need to check yourself…..

And then I went on to say that I encounter these type of women on a daily basis, in which I do but…

I do not take back nor apologize for what I said in the letter…but what I will do is acknowledge my part.

What the hell am I doing?

Is it the fact that I am manic? (I need to admit that to myself because it is what it is…right?) Today I am too much for people and I can see how. I have been medication free for almost three months so that sounds about right.

Back on my meds again, soon? As much as I hate it, it’s a possibility.

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Hold up…do I hate it? If I did I would be curving to the temptations of astigmatism. I do not hate it. I am embracing It.

Sitting with it.

Allowing it to be just as it is.

This is my first ever omission to mania. I usually try to hoard it and keep it bottled in. In all honesty, it was this post on The Bipolar Writer, written by C.M. North, that cued me to tune in.

This is my first time to recognize, better yet, acknowledge the symptoms of my mania.

Everything is overwhelming. My senses are heightened and I feel…discombobulated.

Out of it.

Someone needs me.

I am forgetting something.

My mind races 1,000 mph.

I take things personally.

I am not in my lane.

I am in search of…..

This is when I unintentionally hurt peoples feelings. I am brutally honest, often unapologetically. My truth is being exposed so….fuck it, I’ll expose yours.

Paranoia sets in.

The whispers start. And it isn’t my imagination because they are talking about me. They talk about how I am mean, bossy, and a bitch yet they claim to not judge others or even better, they understand.

I don’t even understand.

I question if I should ride this wave a bit longer. But I know I shouldn’t because it affects everyone. Not just me.

I go to extremes and the fall…

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the fall is brutal, puncturing any progress I’ve made along the way. As I rapidly type this, no really you should see my thumbs tapping away, I am putting together the puzzle of my life. My eyes are opening but the question that remains is,

Am I ready to not be this way? It’s all I know but all I am discovering. And all I wish to go away.

You may say, ” you act like you have a choice”.

I think I do and it is others who my mania effects negatively and maybe I am tired of dumbing myself down for them. No one cares that I am sensitive. Nope, all they remember are my words. Their truth.

Subsequently

Having a mental illness is a challenge. Having cooccurring disorders is torcher. The gravitational pull into the abyss is daunting. It glitters, inviting me into its embrace. The familiarity is the bait. The contentment, isolating. Before you know it, a hospital gown with no underwire bra. No drawstring pants. The exciting time of your day is med time.

We are caged.


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After some research and sleep, I woke refreshed. There has been a huge shift with the moon. This explains everything. If you have followed R.O.E. for any length of time, you have heard me speak of the moon and the effects it has on me. This type of shift hasn’t happened in 9 years!!.

When I often discuss the way I feel with energy it is referred to as being an empath. I have never really liked calling myself that because it seems to be a trend of sorts. I do my best to stray away from the trends of our society.

Yesterday it was too much too handle. I wasn’t. Feeling what everyone else feels can be a gift but it can also be paralyzing.

I do wonder if I should stop labeling myself as bipolar. What we think, we become and this has always been my belief. Ironically I’ve not ever put it to good use.

I don’t say that because I am in denial. It is the stigmatism attached that is negative and that in itself weighs on me. I understand that not everyone feels to the extremes in which I do but what about that makes me ill? Or disordered?

I am tackling these types of things on a daily basis as I grow in my understanding of who I am. It is a struggle to feel everything but I am realizing that I would rather this than to be medicated. It’s sad that being thrown into a hospital is the solution for those of us who have yet to set interpersonal boundaries for ourselves.

Imagine if you will… You walk into a room and you are technically “happy”. Suddenly you are hit with a sense of anger and confusion. And from there you navigate around the area and begin feeling feelings of sadness and before you know, you’ve jumped back to happy all within a 30-minute time frame. I don’t care who you are, that’s a lot. This is what I experience if I do not put up barriers.

I had gotten really good at putting up walls to not allow everything to impact me. Slowly I’ve let them down not remembering why I had initially built them. Now….. I raise them which is much easier said than done.

Although I may not understand what is going on, I am fully aware that my life is shifting. As I reread this it jumps all over the place but there is legit sense to it. I just hope I come out on the better end of things. Kinder to myself and more open to others. Right now the fog that lifts is one of pain. I don’t want to be calloused. I want to love. Starting with myself.

Love you peeps!!

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Reminders:

It is ok to share your opinion, respectively.

How others process it isn’t a reflection of you.

We each have our own perception that stems from our life experiences.

Be your bold, risk-taking self, be kind to others and most importantly to yourself.

Respect boundaries.

Your own and others.

No assumptions.

No expectations.

Be still.

Reflect often.

Love always.

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An Introduction

Heyyy Youuu Guys!!

Welcome back to the second edition of An Introduction. As categories are added to Revenge of Eve, I like to take the time to detail them although most of them are self-explanatory.

If you are new to these parts, welcome.

You have stumbled upon An Unconventional Lifestyle blog where we discuss a variety of topics. The first edition of An Introduction listed six categories. My initial goal was to have only four total… I have since extended it to max, 10. Definitely no more than that, preferably 8 but ya know, 10 is a possibility.

Let’s catch up on the newest categories/subjects that will be discussed here on R.O.E.

Life & Relationships

These post will discuss my many curiosities about life and… ahem, relationships. I will also share my personal life in this category. Oh, wait. I do that in every post. Haha.

Perhaps these post will be more intimate. I’ve not ever been married, I have one child and a relatively small family.

My fam will be referred to as:

Ma– my mother

The Others– brother and sister

SIL-sister in law

Kid– my daughter

and The Littles– my niece and nephew.

We spend a lot of time together but as with all families, we have our fair share of disagreements.

Ma & Me

Ma & Me will be a category that describes life as an adult, living with mental illness and… You guessed it, with my Ma.

Life as an adult child isn’t for the faint of heart. It is truly a struggle because you are aware that you are an adult yet you are not only treated as a child, your emotions are not regulated. Its fun (meh) but I wouldn’t have it any other way.

I have a feeling a lot of funny, entertaining, and real will come from this category. We need something to lighten things up around here (it’s ok to agree), I apologize.

What’s even better, my Ma doesn’t read my blog (I am bitter about it but, whatever) and so I can talk shit about her…!! Bahahahahaha. Keyword, I. There are a lot of things that make living with your parent, as an adult, challenging.

Stay tuned.

Letter143

I have always wanted to have a dialogue type series here on R.O.E. but never really knew how I wanted to present it. Well, here it is… Letter143. These are letters to myself, family and friends in real time. I will write what comes to mind, when it comes to mind and publish them immediately.

I created a page that can be found as a drop down from the home directory button, basically explaining what Letter143 is. I would like each post to be found there so if you know how to do that, HELP. 🙂 Would I set it as a parent page and then each post that is a Letter143 set as a what? These post will be simply be titled the date in which it were written. I will consider this aspect of my blog as my online diary, of sorts.


Oh yeah…

Posting hasn’t been at the forefront of my mind as of late. I’m not burned out or remotely considering quitting, I have shifted my energy toward creating. My projects are built upon and require things to be decorated before assembly and again as a whole piece.

I have quite a few things ready to sell, I just haven’t found made the time to take photos. Previously I created a page that displayed a few items but I realized I wasn’t impressed with how the photos turned out. So… I deleted the page and made the decision to wait until I could make them visually appealing (graphically) before posting them again.

I have props. I have the products. So all we are waiting on is me.

Imagine that.


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