4.16.19

Have You?


Have you ever wondered what it would be like to tell your child that life gets better?

Of course, and mean it.

I can’t even imagine the sight of a world where that would be true.

My faith in humanity is put to the test on a daily basis,

mere moments after being restored.

Without such tug-a-war,

Our lives are sure to bore.

If only evolution lessened the pain.

How can we change a society who sees nothing more to gain?

Our lives structured in time frame.

If I teach my child kindness,

Won’t you do the same?



I would be lying if I claimed to be happy, today. It truly sucks that this existence of mine is shared with others who lie, cheat, steal, judge, envy, plot, and watch with bated breath for another to fall. When the fuck will we rise to help all?

This world breaks my heart and I often don’t want any part. The moment I trust or rely on another, I am shown the ugliness that is man. Not sure how much more I can stand.

We are not supposed to expect, but can’t we begin with mutual respect?

So You Know

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So You Know

It’s that time again! Happy Monday, y’all!

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S.Y.K

So You Know is a series that gives the reader insight to the opinions of their favorite bloggers. Participation is easy. Keep reading and don’t forget that S.Y.K is rolled out most Monday’s.

I like to keep it pretty simple around here and here are a few things to keep in mind while participating:

  • There are no right or wrong answers… Your answers = Your opinion = Your life
  • Answer a few or one, whatever you are comfortable with
  • Pingback to any S.Y.K. post
  • Use the hashtag #SYK to tag your post
  • Be real. If you feel a certain type of way, say it. You were asked your opinion (double dog dare)

Extra info.

  • A number of questions will be asked. At least 1, no more than 5.
  • Questions will range in subject from cherries to prostitution.
  • Participation will consist of you creating a post on your website, listing the questions and responding.
  • Pingback to any SYK post

Don’t know how to create a pingback? Hit me up and I’ll tell ya how. It’s easy and everyone needs a little help here and there

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Ready? On your mark…get set….
GO!!

  • Do you take responsibilty for other peoples problems and/or emotions, unknowingly? If so, move on to question 2, if not…head on to #3.
  • When did you noticed this behavior was burdening you and stunting your growth? Was it a particular incident or did someone verbally tell you that it isn’t your responsibility?
  • Were you raised by giving parents or by parents who gave only to throw it in your face later?
  • Lastly, what are your opinions concerning parents being held responsible for their children’s action? As in – what age is the child when they are held responsible for their own actions? Is this opinion reflective of how your parents raised you or opposite?

Ok I squeezed multiple question under one number, two times (lol), but that’s ok


The questions here on S.Y.K. have had a parenting theme more recently and as I am just noticing this, I can relate it to what I am seeing lately. These questions are also for non-parents – assuming they have opinions about the matters of parenting. Because I mean, damn, they sure have an opinion when a child is screaming and throwing a fit in Wal-Mart!! And the expression on their faces say even more!!


My answers to last weeks questions

  • What is your biggest fear? Besides suffocating, which is my biggest, would have to be that I “check out” because life becomes too hard to handle.
  • When did you recognize it as the biggest? After an episode of psychosis.
  • What happened that caused you to recognize it? I lost control of my mind. More specifically, I wasn’t taught how powerful our brains are and that it can do things without consulting the host.
  • Has it ever happened to you or anyone you love? not that I am aware of.
  • Have you tried to overcome? If so, how and what was the result? I do not remember fighting it but I will say it was scary and out of sorts. I saw myself looking down from above. I was sitting in a chair with my legs crossed and while I was literally doing so, it didn’t make sense to see myself from that perspective. Unfortunately the opposite is true. When life seems to be edging on “too much”, I almost welcome it. It can be related to me giving up, I suppose. I don’t want to give up but sometimes life can be too much and sometimes I feel I am not cut out for it.

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S.Y.K

It’s been a while!!

Hey guys!! I feel like it has been forever!! I hope all is well with everyone. Life has been going at a rate that I am finding hard to keep up with. There aren’t enough hours in a day. Shoo!

Operations are still hit and miss around here as I try to find where all of this fits into the scheme of life. If I am honest, I’d much rather be busy doing this all day then any of the other shit I’ve some how become obligated to do. Yuck.

Join us each Monday for new questions. Its easy to participate!!

Let’s Get the Show on the Road!!

So You Know
So You Know

I like to keep it pretty simple around here and here are a few things to keep in mind while participating:

  • There are no right or wrong answers… Your answers = Your opinion = Your life
  • Answer a few or one, whatever you are comfortable with
  • Pingback to any S.Y.K. post
  • Use the hashtag #SYK to tag your post
  • Be real. If you feel a certain type of way, say it. You were asked your opinion (double dog dare)

Extra info.

  • A number of questions will be asked. At least 1, no more than 5.
  • Questions will range in subject from cherries to prostitution.
  • Participation will consist of you creating a post on your website, listing the questions and responding.
  • Pingback to any SYK post

This weeks question may challenge some of you but I encourage you to push through.

  • What is your biggest fear?
  • When did you recognize it as the biggest?
  • What happened that caused you to recognize it?
  • Has it ever happened to you or anyone you love?
  • Have you tried to overcome? If so, how and what was the result?
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Previous S.Y.K. questions (my answers)

As a parent do you feel safe leaving the world in your children hands? Explain why or why not? I feel as though I will leave behind an intelligent, independent, proactive, emotionally stable being. As far as the world being a safe place, that will not happen as long as humans exist and have free will. It isn’t the world I worry about being safe as much as I hope my child is safe.

*If you are child-free, do you feel we (humans) are heading in the right direction, as a whole? I think a lot more beings are waking up to the fact that there is damage that has been done. As far as it stands now, I feel like it is more damage control verses moving in the right direction. Awareness is key and we are slowly getting there.

*What do you consider the biggest difference in your generation and your parents generation? Compare the two using a positive impact and its negative effects. In my personal instance my mother is a baby boomer born in 1955. Between us the biggest difference is communication. The way she was raised children and more specifically women were meant to be seen, not heard. The complete opposite is true of my generation. Its negative effects lead to assumptions, confrontation instead of conversation. and silent resentments. This is very unhealthy and extremely so for those of us in substance abuse recovery.

*Do you feel like an old soul? Or a youngster? Why? Ooooo well.. A Youngster of course but the way I’ve always been pissed at the world, I know I’ve done this before.

*What era would you chose to live in if given the chance? If given the chance I wouldn’t chose this realm, ever. No generation could entice me enough…if given the choice. I would simply reply, “None. No thank you”.

About tomorrow

I am slowly waking up to the fact that all we have is now. It is easy to say but the process is odd, uncomfortable, and confusing. There are things that are lining out that I never knew were wrinkled and many of the things I thought were one way, have been turning out another way. I do my best to not attach expectations to situations. It turns out much better that way but what about tomorrow? Will it come? When it does, will we understand more?

There is a shift happening y’all and if you can’t feel it, try too. There is a ton of activity surrounding us. Please do not shrug and chalk it up- just allow yourself to be. Don’t think. Only breathe. Then tell me what you felt. Maybe you’ll be better at describing it.

Revenge of Eve


What If?…

I wonder if…

I said all that came to mind,

Who my words would find.

Why am I notoriously behind?

Last in line.


Is it true that if you want something

You must let it go?

If that’s the case,

I want out of this rat race!

To live my life

At a sloths pace.


What type of being

Has no face?

A ghost?

An alien?

I wonder.

How come
our soul

Isn’t in control?

And.

Is free will

Hell?

Does time
eventually…

tell?

Without our souls,

Aren’t our bodies

Only a shell?


How come we never know if an event is traumatic,

Until it’s over?

Read that again.

Think about it.


What if…

instead of the epidermis,

We were encased in glass.

How long would you last?

Would you shatter?

To whom would it matter?


Who said, Mad Hatter?


Listen closely.

Children scream silently.

Watch them.

Most importantly,

Listen to them.

They are people too.

Who???

You!


Take a look at you.
Embrace what it is that
Is…
You.
I wonder what if
Don’t you
?

I Wonder…

Maybe me being an addict wouldn’t be such a surprise to others if, say…

I…

Was visibly missing teeth.

Or…say…

If I walked -instead of driving a luxury sedan.

Or…hmmm.

Wasn’t white.


Does judgment feel the same to everyone?

Do different forms of judgment

Feel…different?

How would we even compare?


Let’s say… I am your daughter.

Drunk or not,

would you ask her

if she wanted to see…

your cock?

Because…

I. am…

someone’s daughter.


Do you ever wonder if…

the beggar on the street is a test?

They say Jesus walked among man,

right?


Are you the same in the daytime…

as you are at night?


Does your mind take flight?

….doing its job

of

protecting you from pain.


What is it exactly we stand to gain?

Or are we only here to sustain?

Failing, we do quite the opposite

And…

maintain.


An infinity for questions with no answers plaques the most curious of minds.

…But is it really answers

we seek?

For myself

I only want a peek.

The vast unknown is too much

for this feeble

and

unstable

brain.

That is what I have been given…

Labeling me…

not so…

sane.