On Awakening (I pathetically beg you to read)

The Shift

I must let it be known to anyone who is ready for an awakening within themselves or the world, it’s happening in me and it is painful! If you are on a spiritual journey of any kind you have most likely heard of Eckard Tolle and if you haven’t heard of him, you have got to look him up!!

(Click his name above to be directed and discover the purpose of his foundation)


2019

I claimed 2019 to be the year of self-discovery and I had NO idea what I was in for! None, zilch, notta. The pessimist in me prepares for the worse but the journey I am being led down has me experiencing a hurt for the world in our current state of existence. The suffering and pain I am feeling may prove too much to bear.

My assumption was that I would experience sadness from revisiting painful moments that I never allowed myself to fully feel yet I am feeling so much more. Everything I was taught and all I thought about life is being challenged by the spiritual teachings of Eckard Tolle. And I don’t mean challenged as in an argument, I mean for the greater good. The weight of emotions I am feeling I attribute to the pain and suffering being experienced as a collective whole.

At this point, I don’t care if I sound crazy, I have to share so others have the opportunity to tune in. For those who question any belief outside of religion and even those who do not, anyone soul searching, agnostics, atheists, average folks…everyone!! This information is for US and it is in your best interest to take advantage of being taught about the shift happening. It is hard to conceptualize the extent to which things are discussed but I feel his words with every fiber of my being. You will too. Just listen. Don’t think, don’t resist, don’t judge, but don’t say I don’t warn you about the difficult realizations you will have.

This isn’t a scam to get you to follow a person and his beliefs, this is the way back to our true selves. He goes in depth about ego, our idea of God, our brains, our consciousness, and more. You don’t have to be intelligent or rich or white or any of that bullshit for this information to impact you.

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Stop making that face! Have faith!

This isn’t some new modern shit that will fade away rather a shift that must happen in order for us as a species to continue moving forward and it’s happening whether we like it or not.

People use the term millennial to disguise the first generation the shift has impacted in a blanketed fashion. Older generations are doubtful because it puts everything they were taught and taught in the spotlight as wrong (language..more on that) but this isn’t about being right or wrong, this is about healing as a whole. Believe me, I’m the last one to advocate for our species because in my opinion, we are fucked and we did it to ourselves. This approach is much kinder.

There are no fees, no membership, and no, it isn’t witchcraft or a cult nor is it a belief system that threatens you to flames, condemning you to hell on the basis of decision. This is a legit explanation, to the extent, our minds can conceptualize, as far as our existence in the human form is concerned.

Naturally, some will want to challenge this notion but the catch is your words may spew challenges but if you live by this teaching, there is no denying the truth behind it. Not one person can do as suggested and prove error.

That’s a bold statement especially for someone like myself. I don’t just believe what I am told. I am doer, a leader, and a woman who has experienced pain and grief to the extent of losing my sanity.

Adaptation

We developed words to guide us in communicating and somewhere along these lines we began to use these words to define who we are, what we are supposed to do according to these roles, and that’s where we went wrong. The language of love is all we need and because of a language we developed, we couldn’t be any further from our original being. We use words and labels to define our surrounding and in terms of what’s right and what is wrong, this is right. How do I know? I don’t know. It’s a feeling. I’ve never felt so right in my life. Another huge statement!

I am using terms we are familiar with that describe what it is that is happening within me. I am not saying you are wrong in your beliefs. I am speaking from my perspective but I challenge you to make it yours. Process it how you will but take the action it takes to implement the suggestions.

What really convinces me of this theory is the fact there is no insult to other opinions in order to put emphasis on this way of operating. There are no side effects other than tears and a bit of confusion but compared to the ones Big Pharma would have us all on, that’s nothing!! And these are second to the feelings I have about this….and you all know, I NEVER TRUST MYSELF. My intuition has spiked off the charts as though my inner child is pushing me to be set free. If I’ve never trusted myself before, I do now.

Normally I would be hesitant to share anything that goes against the grain and this doesn’t even do that!!! All you are required to do is be present, sit with your emotions as they occur, and move on with the next minute. Don’t get me wrong, those simple ideas are hard to do when our world screams instant, now, immediate, fix, cure, solve and even better…the promise of happiness. Never one time does he use words to make promises or glorify the end result. Why? Because it speaks for itself.

If I’ve said it once, I’ve said it twice I require used to require words for others to understand me and I revoke each and every time I thought or said so. I do not need to be defined. I am. It is our very words that are causing us to melt. This makes total sense of the decline in mental health.

As I explore the present moment I truly realize it is all we have. Saying so and knowing so are two different things. My journey has only begun but I have hope whereas I hadn’t prior to discovering Eckard Tolle. I share this information with y’all because I know we all struggle most especially within the mental health community and I will promote this until my last breath.

I share because I care! Give it a chance…you have nothing to lose!! And if you do, make sure you pass on what his teachings have done for you.

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Ps. When you read or listen to the teaching PLEASE pingback to this post or email me and let me know you have done so…I would LOVE to hear what it does for others. If you have Spotify you can be taught this on Oprah’s Super Soul Conversations podcast. The name of the episodes is called A New Earth. There are 10 episodes each an hour long. Use the hashtag #daretoshare

4.19.19

I am ready to let go of the attachment

that has caused me to quit giving.

I am a giving person

and do so with thought

But

That’s stopped.

I am ready to rid myself of

the idea

I am not good enough.

I am.

I am ready to initiate change in my life

and

trust the outcome.

I have stopped trying to find

me

And now

Allowing it to be.

I am stepping from behind

what everyone expects,

including me;

Me to be.

4.16.19

Have You?


Have you ever wondered what it would be like to tell your child that life gets better?

Of course, and mean it.

I can’t even imagine the sight of a world where that would be true.

My faith in humanity is put to the test on a daily basis,

mere moments after being restored.

Without such tug-a-war,

Our lives are sure to bore.

If only evolution lessened the pain.

How can we change a society who sees nothing more to gain?

Our lives structured in time frame.

If I teach my child kindness,

Won’t you do the same?



I would be lying if I claimed to be happy, today. It truly sucks that this existence of mine is shared with others who lie, cheat, steal, judge, envy, plot, and watch with bated breath for another to fall. When the fuck will we rise to help all?

This world breaks my heart and I often don’t want any part. The moment I trust or rely on another, I am shown the ugliness that is man. Not sure how much more I can stand.

We are not supposed to expect, but can’t we begin with mutual respect?

Silent Sufferer

An unbearable sadness

To tame

A story

different…

yet

The same

A life sentence

Imprisoned

to a life of shame

Ridden with guilt

Themselves

They blame

No words can explain

The epic tragedy

A mothers child

Taken in vain


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dedicated to: D, Wendy, & L

I work with D’s and Wendy’s daughters and L is D’s best friend. What these three have in common is something I wish to NEVER experience. Each of them have mourned a child and the scenarios are different but the pain, one in the same.

Wendy had six children and lost two boys, separately, to the streets. D survived an abusive relationship, at the cost of her child’s life. And L… oh the pain of mourning her child… An abusive man with a gun, to her head, forced her to walk away only later to say the daughter they shared were dead. Doing all she knew how she continued scrapping by only to be contacted by her daughter 30+ years later.

These wounded women live life with a piece(s) of themselves missing. The pain of such loss I cannot comprehend. These women’s stories have found me recently and all I can hope is that it isn’t to prepare me for the same thing.

If you or someone you know is in an abusive relationship, provide them access to resources that will help to get them out. Do not wait until this is their story.


Domestic violence can happen to anyone regardless of race, age, sexual orientation, religion or gender. If you or someone you know is in an abusive relationship, or if you have questions about abuse, we can help.
1-800-799-SAFE (7233) thehotline.org
1-866-331-9474 loveisrespect.org text “loveis” to 22522

Office on Women’s Health: resource page

Psych Central: resource page offers hotline numbers for many situations. A great resource page to bookmark. Information provided for both United States and the U.K.

I Wonder…

Maybe me being an addict wouldn’t be such a surprise to others if, say…

I…

Was visibly missing teeth.

Or…say…

If I walked -instead of driving a luxury sedan.

Or…hmmm.

Wasn’t white.


Does judgment feel the same to everyone?

Do different forms of judgment

Feel…different?

How would we even compare?


Let’s say… I am your daughter.

Drunk or not,

would you ask her

if she wanted to see…

your cock?

Because…

I. am…

someone’s daughter.


Do you ever wonder if…

the beggar on the street is a test?

They say Jesus walked among man,

right?


Are you the same in the daytime…

as you are at night?


Does your mind take flight?

….doing its job

of

protecting you from pain.


What is it exactly we stand to gain?

Or are we only here to sustain?

Failing, we do quite the opposite

And…

maintain.


An infinity for questions with no answers plaques the most curious of minds.

…But is it really answers

we seek?

For myself

I only want a peek.

The vast unknown is too much

for this feeble

and

unstable

brain.

That is what I have been given…

Labeling me…

not so…

sane.