I Just Realized…

R.O.E. Need To Know

The Bloggers Bash Awards will be announced at 6 pm across the ocean!! Oh my! When is that here? That’s like soon maybe?!?!

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Win or lose, I’ve already won! Simply being nominated was winning for me. So before the results are announced I would like to let y’all know I am forever grateful for your support and encouraging words. Y’all have fueled my journey.

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Finding my voice has never been a challenge. My delivery…a different story. When your internal voice is cruel, the tendency to portray what you mean can be easily misconstrued as abrasive. It may as well be but because of you, I have learned that speaking kindly to myself has the ability to change my whole perspective on life. I call that a win!!

Thank you to each of you for every comment, like, email, donation, and follow. You can go to bed at night knowing that you have singlehandedly helped someone on their personal improvement journey and I hope to not let us down.!!..

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Working On Us. A Mental Health Question Series

Mental Health & Recovery

Last week I participated in Beckie’s mental health question series, Working on Us, and so as I am catching up for the week, I shall share my experience this week as well 🙂

Here are the guidelines for Beckie’s new series:

Each week I will ask a question or questions pertaining to mental health or I will even go as far as posting a photo prompt. Your job if you so choose to join along, is to write a post on your own blog, and creating a ping-back to the original post.

🌻It is up to you the reader to decide if you want to write a non-fictional or fictional piece, poetry, short prose… Whatever you like and/or whatever you feel most comfortable doing. Whatever you choose to do, I will, therefore, reblog what you have written. This is one way to not only promote your site but also spread awareness to all things mental health related. 🌻

As an added bonus… Since there are so many different mental health illnesses/disorders, YOU, the blogger can send me a comment as to what you would like to be the next question (s), and they will be addressed in future posts.

🌻What is the reason behind the “Mental Health Prompt of “Working on Us” (?) It’s fairly simple actually. I’d like this series to be an all-inclusive mental health community blog in order to be a source of more support towards one another. Idea’s, suggestions, and advice can be shared amongst the group.🌻

So, Are We Ready for Week# 2? I am going to start with two prompts. You can pick one or both, and again, you can choose how you want this to be written. Don’t forget to create a pingback to the original post, this way I can share with more people within the mental health community, as well as promote your blog site!

🌻 Prompt #1

What do you find to be the most challenging for you when it comes to your mental illness? (You can give an example and also a means on to how to cope).

Yes there are two prompts but due to limited space I am choosing to opt out on this weeks photo option – sad, I know but gotta do what I gotta do…

What I find most challenging

Is being honest about it. Sometimes things spill out because they have been held in too long but for the most part, I chose to speak on a somewhat surface level about my “illnesses”. I haven’t yet announced it (I do not believe) but I was misdiagnosed as bipolar. This isn’t my psychiatrist’s fault rather my own. I did not disclose important aspects of my life causing the misdiagnosis. I can’t say that I am ashamed because I do not feel as though I am, I just try to challenge people. It’s stupid actually because if I am seeking help then you’d think… Yeah, I know. Weirdo!! I agree, however, I have turned a new leaf and my new therapist knows the deal. Sometimes I am afraid I will startle professionals with my thoughts and I do not want to say things that alarm them when it is only a thought. Do you know what I mean?? Being open and honest about symptoms and side effects have always been easier for me to share with strangers or those really close to me. Those in the middle, don’t matter so I just don’t elaborate. Of course, it is easy to share with my readers because we share a level of understanding that goes without saying – but by saying so we can connect and feel as though we are a part of. Well, for me it is.

Check out Beckie’s challenge each Wednesday. We are only on the second week so you aren’t behind!! This is how we show our support. To participate is to compliment – or so it feels 🙂 I hope everyone enjoys there weekend!! Make sure you check back Monday for So You Know

An Update On Life

Life & Relationships, Mental Health & Recovery, Personal Growth & Goals

Still here, just…

Hey y’all! I’m still here just not as active. Ever since Kid was eight, I believe, her father and I rotate weeks during summer break. She was 11 (2013) when she went to live with him as her custodial parent, giving me more free time than I knew what to do with.

With my sobriety date being 4-20-2015 those two years is a blur. From 2015-2017 I spent my days sleeping and my nights working as I adjusted to life as a mom without full custody. Hard doesn’t come close to describing such an adjustment. When I think about it, I have no clue what I did in my free time but if I’d have to guess it was absolutely nothing. When I picked up blogging mid-year 2017, I wondered why I hadn’t done so for years prior but oh how quickly I am reminded.

We are on week three of summer and week two with Kid. It isn’t that she requires a lot as much as it is me wanting everything to be perfect for when she needs something. I try to accommodate her every move by limiting her movement – if that makes any sense. Basically, she sits back and I cater to her. Not because of her but because of me.

I know many will say that me doing so only hinders her and I agree, buttttt… I am stopping!

I bet you thought I was gonna say, “she’s my only”!! Tricked ya!

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It’s me!!

All I want in life is for my child to be a kind, functional, impactful human being. All the rest, I could care less about. The reality of her being functional is for her to be able to do things independently and this includes feeding herself, managing chores, and maintaining her personal hygiene (mental and physical).

Each week she is with me she is learning to cook two meals. Her chores are a work in progress more so on my behalf than hers. She needs to tweak her attention to detail and then she will be fine with that aspect. This summer she will see my therapist alone and with me so we can overcome any obstacles that will restrict further growth and she has signed up for a membership at the gym right up to the road from where I live. Gasp! When she returns to school she will be a senior and with that comes a lot of preparation and responsibility. To avoid excuses we are mapping out the year as well as meeting deadlines for college applications and scholarship/funding requirements. We are making her a Senior/College mini binder with monthly calendars that require something for college to be taken care each month. The purpose of this is to calm any anxiety and also to not miss out on an opportunity because she “forgot”.

Alllll of that on top of her working, soccer training, and hanging with friends…shew!! And still…she impresses me. Her work ethic is legit, her attitude about readjusting [I shut down as a full-time mom because in my eyes someone else was fulfilling that role] isn’t bad at all and life seems to be falling in place.

**It’s important I own my part and I am working through that with my therapist and will write a post once I process it**

And as it falls into place, for what seems so natural to me and even her, ” my” time is once again limited but I will never complain about that.

I know it is important not to submerge ourselves in roles but there is only a short period of time that she will be fully reliant upon me (and her father) so I will soak up all the time I can have with her trying to continue preparing her for the real world but also realizing that I cannot be replaced so there is no need for me to step down.

Low self-esteem and lack of confidence show up in my everyday life and I am ready to tackle it head-on. I have never fully healed from the emotional and verbal abuse of my childhood and instead, I shut down. I have been learning to reflect my feeling through art but my low self-esteem hinders me from showing it and even worse, sharing it with the world.


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But with all of that said, the total number of visits to my site seem minuscule compared to what is brewing/being planted within myself. Like with everything come the downsides and that is me not being as active in reading the up to date news with each of you. I feel guilty that I have comments I have not responded to, YET…but I am also not allowing that guilt to consume me. It is important for me not to.

Please know that I think of each of you daily. I remember your encouraging words when I need a boost and I am grateful you still visit my posts although at the moment I show little to no support. Keep in mind I am cheering y’all on but now, I am also rooting for me. Thank you for helping build me up to this point. A point to where I will need strength to rip off the bandages and sit with things I’ve never understood. There is so much to come to life from this moment forward and I can only hope that you will continue on with me through my journey.

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S.Y.K.

Mental Health & Recovery

It’s Here!!

So You Know is a fun, sometimes serious, series that airs each Monday with questions that bring the reader closer to their favorite bloggers.

Participation is easy and it allows everyone to get to know you a little more each week.

Rules? Oh, we don’t follow rules too well around here but if you follow these few, you’ll be in the safe zone.

  1. Create a post on your website answering the following questions.
  2. Or not…answer in the comment section. Either way is acceptable to me 🤓
  3. Pingback to this weeks post. Don’t know how? Ask me, it’s easy as pie.

Can you handle that?? I hope so…

1.2.3. Let’s go!

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This week’s questions

  1. How often, if ever, do you feel ruled by your emotions?
  2. Does your mood decide your productivity level?
  3. Are you bipolar or do you have another behavioral diagnosis?
  4. How do you respond to having a not-so-good day? (Sleep, cry, nothing)
  5. If you could give your moods names, what would they be?

-Anger:

-Sadness:

-Joyful:

-Blah:

-Excited:

-**** any additional mood you can think of:


My response to last weeks S.Y.K

  • Do you have a hobby? If so, what is it? Besides blogging, I enjoy creating a variety of forms of art using paper.
  • How did you discover your interest in your hobby? While searching for tips on how to be a better blogger I stumbled upon this amazing world. I have always had a love of stationery and so I picked it up quickly. Not the techniques so much but the collecting, I have down pact! 😂
  • Do you find having a hobby helps with maintaining your mental wellness? How so? I’d say 95%, yes and 5% no. The five percent is only because of my tendency to compare and my perfectionism gets a run for its money!
  • Where do you find materials for staying active with your hobby? Everywhere. Everyday life, craft stores, book stores, estate sales, second hand stores….
  • Have you ever considered monetizing your hobby? Or if you already do, do you still enjoy it as a hobby? I have and do somewhat. Looking back I approached my interest in paper art all wrong. I decided I wanted to monetize it before I even made my first attempt at creating anything. Having done this blocked any creative ideas I may would have had otherwise. I have since pulled the reins on producing an income and focused all of my attention on the actual art of making as well as allowing the process to heal any pent up emotions that cause me to regress any chance they surface.
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6.9.19

Life & Relationships

Revenge of Eve

Having a curious mind

tends to take my thoughts

and press rewind.

Among those thoughts

are questions

without

answers.

Some of which

have consumed

years

of my life.

And

still

No answers.

Detaching from my thoughts

I find peace

Yet

brought back

to question

Where am I to muster the strength

to be

what my daughter

needs

me to be

when others break

her heart?

I have no

hope

to offer

for saying it won’t happen

again

would be a lie.

And the

thoughts

churn.

When will this world heal?

How can I protect my only

from broken others?

I can only

beg and plead

she not become

as calloused as

Me.

OMG!! I’m Not Sure I can Accept ‘Em

R.O.E. Need To Know

Exactly what the title says…

On behalf of Revenge of Eve, I would like to apologize for the unsightly ads that are being plastered across, on top, and in between paragraphs.!!!

I understand having a free site comes with less than desirable options but couldn’t they limit the horrendous display of hairy fuck’n legs advertising heart attack prescription medication?

Seriously, Word Press??? You have got to do better!!

Are you aware you have stiff competition?? While you are at #1 it doesn’t last if you continue to sneak in costs, take over someones aesthetically designed work with ads that have nothing in common with the sites purpose – Not much else for me to say except I apologize to my followers for not managing my finances well but as you know, I am a work in progress.
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An Introduction to Creative Journaling

Creative & Collective

Discussing my fave!

Good morning dear friends.  Today I decided I would like to touch on a topic near and dear to my heart, journaling.  Wait! Don’t scatter!! I am not talking about your typical style of journaling rather creative journaling.

In the linked article you will find the author goes into a brief history about creative journaling, proper strategy’s that result in therapeutic benefits, as well as her personal experience with creative journaling. I have yet to define what it is creative journaling is for me. At the moment I would say that it is more so me combining designs and techniques in search of my own individual style. I am finding that I struggle to actually journal over the pretty collaging and choose to add my journaling to a separate piece of decorated paper and attach it or put it in a pocket on the page I came up with.

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The more and more I practice I seem to improve but I have to be honest when I say I still struggle with perfection and achieving desired results. I am too hard on myself and I am an unforgiving critic. I assumed that such creative journaling would come easy to me because of the habit I have developed over the course of 30 years of journal writing but that hasn’t been my experience. Others compliment my work but I am not to the point of where I am satisfied. I put creating journals on hold in order to focus on my own development whuch in return will improve those I look to sell.

More and more I am noticing how badly I screw things up by not allowing them to be. How do I stop this cycle and just be free?? Please leave your suggestions in the comment section below. Please do not allow my experience to keep you from giving this a go. I refuse to stop and I will continue to work through this.

Still here??

You may have found yourself needing an outlet to release your fears or worries, your personal struggles or you may simply enjoy writing for memory purposes.  Whichever the case, I would love to introduce you to creative journaling.

Give me a second of your time and I’ll explain in further detail what creative journaling means to me.


If you search on Instagram you can hashtag search creative planning and millions of photos will be at your fingertips.  I first discussed creative planning at the beginning of the new year.  It is where you decorate your planner pages using sticker kits, markers, washi tape, decorative paper clips… you get the picture…

It isn’t that this form of journaling/planning is more productive or has superpowers that take you to Oz but what it does do is it adds character to your pages and breaks the monotony of a blank, white page.  

There are a million ways you can approach this style of journaling. Personally I achieve unique pages by layering bits of ephemera from my day to day life or by pulling from my insane collection, where I go on to create a background for my writing.

 You can either hide your writing under the layers of paper so that only you know what lies beneath or you can add your writing to a separate piece of paper and then add it to the college of papers you’ve glued down.  Here is a more visual description.

Creative Journaling

A random yet brilliant idea for you authors out there!

This doesn’t have to be exclusively for your personal info.  You can use the idea when creating a piece of fiction writing.  Sketch what each character looks like, to you, on a piece of paper and adhere it to your page.  From there you can write out ways to describe them using specific adjectives that make your character come to life.  

You can do this with each setting, every character, and you will have a visual and written representation of your ideas.  Begin a fresh page with a new chapter and this will help to organize your thoughts for the book you are writing!! Buy a cheap notebook and dedicate it to use for this idea!!

My thoughts

It creates interest when you layer specific papers to your pages.  The papers used do not have to mean anything because it is about writing your thoughts.  Or..you can be like me and use a mixture of meaningful papers and decorative papers. That’s the beauty of it.  It is all personal preference and totally up to you. What’s even better is that you can make a mistake and cover it up with a layer of paper 🙂 The sky’s the limit.

My tendency to become obsessed with ideas that include bit and pieces of paper that accumulate from everyday life is off the charts.  From my earliest years, I’ve held on to notes written from friends, tickets from concerts, wristbands from waterparks, movie ticket stubs and anything else that brought back to life a moment in time that I enjoyed.  Due to an invasion of privacy, any memories kept prior to my sophomore year went up in flames.

Keeping journals and other bits and pieces of paper became a routine of stuffing in designated drawers and writing in code so that if there were another breach in privacy, the perpetrator would not know specifics. These pieces of my life remain in a trunk stored in my storage unit while my journaling is scattered among notebooks.  Since stumbling upon creative journaling I have made it my mission to gather any and all papers and combine them to best of my ability. My ultimate goal would be to bind them together in one book for my daughter to have when I am gone. Will that happen? I hope so.

Other forms of creative journaling

My code writing days have become more elusive with my give a damn and my life of collecting papers along the way has doubled with an influx of ideas.  Using everyday papers collected from your experiences and adding them to your journaling is referred to as junk journaling.  Oh, the possibilities paper holds!!  Hours upon hours have been spent watching YouTube videos of creating memory masterpieces transforming my love of paper into an idea catalog that I haven’t quite yet to organize but I am getting there.  Much to my surprise, this creative endeavor has led to the discovery of art journaling, glue books, and a travelers notebook system. Talk about paper heaven!!  I can’t get enough.

I have made it my mission to combine vintage and modern designs with designer paper as well as daily junk paper to create memory keeping books for others to record and store their most precious moments.  May 2, 2018, I declared my beginning of a creative journey and boy let me tell ya a journey it’s been. The hours I have invested in research, trial and error, practice using my own life’s memories, creating a studio, organizing and reorganizing my new space, shopping, purchasing, disassembling books and magazines, cutting, gluing…can not be totaled.  The best part is that I have LOVED every minute of it!!

Working on Us

Mental Health & Recovery

Working on Us

There is a new series presented by Beckie of the blog Beckie’s Mental Mess. If you are not following her journey, you are missing out!! If you have ever read the comment section of any given post here on R.O.E., you will have read Beckie’s input.

As a very supportive blogger and friend dear to me, I am honored she reached out and asked me to participate in her series. These days my blogging life is hit and miss and I appreciate the personal invite. This is the first of the first as Beckie’s first prompt challenge. Her intentions are to target the mental health community of bloggers.

Here, I’ll let her do the explaining…


RULES:

Each week I will ask a question or questions pertaining to mental health or I will even go as far as posting a surprise. Your job if you so choose to join along, is to write a post on your own blog, and creating a ping-back to the original post.

It is up to you the reader to decide if you want to write a non-fictional or fictional piece, poetry, short prose… Whatever you like and/or whatever you feel most comfortable doing. Whatever you choose to do, I will, therefore, reblog what you have written. This is one way to not only promote your site but also spread awareness to all things mental health related.

As an added bonus… Since there are so many different mental health illnesses/disorders, YOU, the blogger can send me a comment as to what you would like to be the next question (s), and they will be addressed in future posts.

What is the reason behind the “Mental Health Prompt of “Working on Us” (?) It’s fairly simple actually. I’d like this series to be an all-inclusive mental health community blog in order to be a source of more support towards one another. Idea’s, suggestions, and advice can be shared amongst the group.

So, Are We Ready? I am going to start with two prompts. You can pick one or both, and again, you can choose how you want this to be written.

~*~

Prompt #1 – Question:

When you first found out that you had a mental illness/disorder, what was your first reaction? Explain, how this new revelation regarding your health affected you?

Prompt #2 – Picture:

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Reminder: This is the first time I conducting “Prompts” so forgive me if I’m doing something wrong. 🙄

Select one or the other or both prompts. Write your own non-fictional, or fictional piece, or poetry, short story, (Whatever you want), then create a ping-back or copy your post and enter it in the comment section of this post.


There ya have it, straight from the horse’s mouth!!

And now for my part 💕


Some see a season

I see a twist

Do I dare speak

on what I see?

As you sit there

and stare

I do see

what you see

And

It’s never compared

Different

And you see

I was raised to believe

that me being me

was different

And

something

I

shouldn’t

be

Mental anguish

has broken me

Hail to

today

I shall say

as I see

A side profile

that represents a space

that houses the brain

Is it a tree you see?

Do you see…

snow on the ground?

I see a broken soul

Dead

Are those crows you see?

I see repetitive thoughts

circling

or maybe

birds of prey

feeding off the carcass

of the soul

With footprints leaving their mark

Proof

a soul was

once there

My vision stripped

bare

Because of you

I dare

and

share.

How does blogging help mental health?

Mental Health & Recovery

Because of the life-changing ways, blogging has contributed to my life, I would love to hear how it has had an impact on yours. Check out Ashley’s post and submit your experience with her.

Mental Health @ Home

the word blog repeated around a globe

I’m working on an article about the mental health benefits of blogging.  While that may seem obvious to us, how often do you hear mental health professionals suggesting it as a therapeutic tool?

I’d like to get a sense from my fellow bloggers how blogging contributes to your own mental health.  You can let me know in the comments below, or if you’d prefer to be anonymous, you can respond via Google Form: https://forms.gle/fUp83wDh9BtJGGmYA

Thanks for your help!

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So You Know (S.Y.K.)

Creative & Collective

So You Know

I was going to mention how quick the week came and went and then I realized we are halfway through the year!! Wowzers!! Can you believe we are already 6 months into 2019?!?!

Every Monday here on R.O.E. we present a series of questions for bloggers to answer with the hopes of getting to know the person behind the screen better. You can participate by creating a post on your site answering the week’s questions or you may answer them in the comment section below. If you choose to publish a post, please create a pingback to this week’s edition of S.Y.K.

Easy, peasy!


This week’s Questions

  • Do you have a hobby? If so, what is it?
  • How did you discover your interest in your hobby?
  • Do you find having a hobby helps with maintaining your mental wellness? How so?
  • Where do you find materials for staying active with your hobby?
  • Have you ever considered monetizing your hobby? Or if you already do, do you still enjoy it as a hobby?

My answers to last week’s S.Y.K.

  1. What is your favorite part of summer? I would have to say having cook outs by the pool or at the lake is my favorite part. I love the closeness I feel to nature when I am using traditional methods of feeding people by using the bare essentials of modern day cookware. If that makes sense. Lol
  2. Do you swim in bodies of water that are questionable? Like where you cannot see the bottom – lakes, ponds, the ocean… if so, what’s is your fear in doing so? When I was a kid we swam in anything that created a puddle. Manmade ponds and lakes with slimy bottoms where you couldn’t see your feet with red clay mud being the structure of the pond. These days, not so much. If I get in a body of water it is to cool off by quickly throwing water over my body or getting on a float in the shallow end and rowing myself out to the deep end. I will however swim in a pool but not after fourth of July – in Louisiana at least. Why? The water after the fourth is like bath water and I cannot stand the thought of urine filled bath water especially when the urine isn’t my own. Yuck. The ocean is a little different because of the ability to see my feet. I am still a bit weirded out about the marine life though. Arkansas has beautiful bodies of water with cold. flowing water that is clear and with rock bottoms. That is my kind of water to be in. Streams and flowing water is what I prefer.
  3. What is the average temperature (Fahrenheit) of summer in your area? on average I would say between the months of May and August 90 degrees is average but it soars into the 100’s more often than I like. UGH!!! I’m not ready for it!
  4. Do you have access to a pool? If so, is it your own private pool or a complex pool? I do but I don’t. We are allowed to use my Ma’s best friend’s private pool but I don’t very often. My co-worker who lives across the street has an apartment and I have laid out at her complex’s pool once this year.
  5. What ocean is closest to you? The Gulf of Mexico is at the bottom of Louisiana but I don’t believe I’ve ever been in it.

That’s it for this weeks edition of S.Y.K. If there are things you wish you knew about other bloggers, submit a list of questions you would like to know the answer too and I will use them in future So You Knows. You can do so by chatting with me via email.

Thanks for participating and as always, I love y’all!!!

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